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I always jokingly say, "The only reason I don't support a drug habit is because I can't afford one." But as Eminem once said, "a lot of truth is said in jest." The other part of me not supporting a drug habit is I live in white suburbia and I know like one guy who knows anything about drugs..

But I often find myself in this certain dilemma. I always, as a kid, told everyone that I'd never do drugs because they were bad. But as a kid I also shat in the hot tub for experimental reasons so I don't really trust the little twat. The issue I'm having is that I often find myself unable to say what I want because the only sensor I seem to have built is one that prevents me from saying what I want, which goes against the reason I don't like sensors, and why I'll swear at a seven year old in church (-or I should say I did).

But this sensor I've built, preventing myself from saying what I absolutely which I had the courage to say seems to disappear when I'm taking cold meds (so imagine what miss Mary Jane can do for me.) 

Imagine it. I know it's happened to most people. You wanna tell someone a secret. A secret only you know. A secret that would change the world (hopefully for the better) if you were to tell. This secret is at the tip of your tongue. The thought at the front of your mind. So large it's squirmed and stretched its way into your occipital lobe and now you can fucking see it. A word that swarms your very existence in this dark fog that seems to go on forever.

It sucks, right? It's the worst shit ever and I, for one, cannot seem to push it out. Everyone's got fears, mine is social rejection (not an uncommon fear I'm certain), and I KNOW that the people I like won't judge me. But here I am at a cross roads between what I want to say, and being utterly unable to say it. And the answer is probably drugs. Nothing damaging, just... I just need the ability to say things... And I can't... So, as a warning, if I come out of nowhere with an arsenal of shit you dond't even want to know, it's cuz I'm probably high then. Not now though. Now it's just me doing not drugs, which to me feels WAY worse at this point in my life.

So remember kids, stay in school and don't do drugs!

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  • Mood: Stuck
  • Watching: TBFP
  • Playing: Destiny

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4D Boobs by Ymeisnot
4D Boobs
Because it's a sketch with clock hands and boobs and time is supposedly the fourth dimension!!! AAAAAAAahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaa!!! I'm so fucking cle- I'm fucking stupid, I know, I'm sorry.

Just kidding, I regret nothing!

Just a sketch that I'll digitize when I lose more sanity ^w^
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I always jokingly say, "The only reason I don't support a drug habit is because I can't afford one." But as Eminem once said, "a lot of truth is said in jest." The other part of me not supporting a drug habit is I live in white suburbia and I know like one guy who knows anything about drugs..

But I often find myself in this certain dilemma. I always, as a kid, told everyone that I'd never do drugs because they were bad. But as a kid I also shat in the hot tub for experimental reasons so I don't really trust the little twat. The issue I'm having is that I often find myself unable to say what I want because the only sensor I seem to have built is one that prevents me from saying what I want, which goes against the reason I don't like sensors, and why I'll swear at a seven year old in church (-or I should say I did).

But this sensor I've built, preventing myself from saying what I absolutely which I had the courage to say seems to disappear when I'm taking cold meds (so imagine what miss Mary Jane can do for me.) 

Imagine it. I know it's happened to most people. You wanna tell someone a secret. A secret only you know. A secret that would change the world (hopefully for the better) if you were to tell. This secret is at the tip of your tongue. The thought at the front of your mind. So large it's squirmed and stretched its way into your occipital lobe and now you can fucking see it. A word that swarms your very existence in this dark fog that seems to go on forever.

It sucks, right? It's the worst shit ever and I, for one, cannot seem to push it out. Everyone's got fears, mine is social rejection (not an uncommon fear I'm certain), and I KNOW that the people I like won't judge me. But here I am at a cross roads between what I want to say, and being utterly unable to say it. And the answer is probably drugs. Nothing damaging, just... I just need the ability to say things... And I can't... So, as a warning, if I come out of nowhere with an arsenal of shit you dond't even want to know, it's cuz I'm probably high then. Not now though. Now it's just me doing not drugs, which to me feels WAY worse at this point in my life.

So remember kids, stay in school and don't do drugs!

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  • Mood: Stuck
  • Watching: TBFP
  • Playing: Destiny
Samus Aran-Gravity Suit,Zero Mission (Sketch, WIP) by Ymeisnot
Samus Aran-Gravity Suit,Zero Mission (Sketch, WIP)
So, it's a sketch. I finally made something in my sketchbook after a long time, and it surprisingly isn't terrible... Buuuuut it could look better, so Imma EVENTUALLY digitize this and see if I can fix its problems. Hell, maybe I can turn this into a print or something if I do a good job (hahahahaaaaa like that's ever ganna happen!). To those of you who can see this, I appreciate you're for some reason watching my Scraps, but hey, I'm an attention whore so thank. 

EDIT. OOOP. I forgot to mention that the thing in the background is one of those upgrade statues, but due to my inablity to spacially organise, and the limitation of my sketchbook, it didn't turn out too well, and will not be in the final product. I will, however, hopefully have something.
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Less I'm there as a dealer, I'm probably never going to attend Wasabi Con again. The venue was small, the people disorganized, and the experience was miserable. To my friends, sorry about the bitching post, earlier. I did finally get to sleep in a fucking bed but I had about a total of 8-10 hours of sleep over all, shame most of it was in a single night... I've learned that Avery is not someone I ever want to room with ever again because his butt stank is stank and his potatios behavior leads to general gross shit and stupid jokes like sleeping in the closet (which lead to fucking up my backpack). Also, when sleep deprived and grumpier than an old, white, american man at a gay illuminati rave, make sure to scope out possible alternative places to rest because if you're rooming with someone, the chances are they're ganna be a dick about it. 

Things did get better for me. I learned I can run my life on two hours of sleep for a long burst of awake, but general mood definitely improves the more sleep I get. I hope to the gods that NDK will be better, and if not, then comes RMFC and Comicon respectively. I did end up blowing a lot of money on really good prints and wall-scrolls. Also got a glow in the dark Deadpool hat for just how it looks (probably never ganna wear it). Any way, over all, Wasabicon wasn't great but I did have fun when I made fun. I mostly only had fun when playing Smash with my friends though.

Any way, not in the most lucid state and I probably sound super redundant, so Imma just leave it at I'm sorry to my friends for being such a bitch, but you're all assholes and sleeping is more important and more stationary than mobile gaming. The Hentai panels were the funniest shit ever and I regret nothing because I found them super interesting. To those thinking about rooming with other people, limit it to two people per bed even if it's more expensive; your everything will thank you severely. Always bring lots of money because once you buy one thing, you're ganna wanna buy EVERYTHING. Also, con raves are boring as shit so dun bother. 

Again, sorry to be so bitchy and dodgy the whole time, I'm just really bad at confrontation and even worse at being not tired.

Sleep time goodbye....
  • Mood: Tired
  • Eating: MUFFINS AND CHEETOS!
  • Drinking: Ginger Ale
So I'm not normally one to post journals about how shitty things are, but since my friends have granted me a total of 4 hours of sleep after 48 hours of running on a few hours of sleep a day, I give to you my shit situation. I'll mark this as a day one of sorts, and maybe I'll post sequel journals as updates if anything noteworthy takes place. I want you to first of all know that this'll probably be kinda long, and I don't expect you to read it. Secondly, I'm on my phone so this took even longer to write this bitchfest than you thought. 

I got my tickets for this con while they were still reasonably priced, so at least I saved some money. But once I arrived I instantly noticed that the new location for the con is significantly smaller than last year's, and thus shit like the artists alley would supply a lot less opportunity. Which thinking about it wouldn't be such a bad thing because I'm saving money potentially, but I really want to spend my money and the selection of cool items is super fucking limited and miniscule compared to what they have, which isn't much to begin with. This downscale caused by another change in management is causing some major issues for me such as there's less cool shit to do, all the cool shit there has always been has been downscaled by at least half, and the staff, although friendlier and way cooler this year, are still way lessened and so they basically don't exist. Just based on what last years con was like, whatever score I would've given that, this year's deserves at most half of it.

Onto things that get a bit more personal now. I handed extra money to the person in charge of our room and stuff so that I could have full access to one of four spots on a bed. Had I actually been able to go to bed in said bed, I wouldn't be writing this bitch note, but seeing as how the floor is bringing the worst out of me, avoiding complaining is not something I even want to do. Instead of me in a nice bed with SUPER soft pillows and warm blankets, thanks to two friends of mine and they're inability to think of how shitty I've been treated, I now have a predicament. One friend that doesn't deserve the bed is now sleeping in the other friends spot while other friend is sleeping in my spot because I decided to stay out a bit later than the rest of them. Which wouldn't be the case had other friend decided to join me like he had promised... This floor is like sleeping on a hardwood floor covered in sandpaper and rocks. Which I wouldn't even mind because I've slept in worse conditions, but I have no blankets. No pillows. VERY limited room. And everything smells like feet and shitty perfume down here. Why limited room?

Limited room in this case was brought on by the inability to manage space in an already small room. Six people rest in this room. Six people have their shit in said room. FIVE of them decided walkways and potential sleeping areas were the way to go instead of doing what the sixth person did. What I did was PUT MY SHIT AWAY. I put all my belongings in a single droor or off into the closet and also a nook between tables. Everyone else has something in the middle of the floor, be it shoes, boxes, paper, etc. This creates a smaller potential area to sleep. Which sucks because I am a tired person who just can't sleep. 

"But why didnt you just wake up the shithead in your bed or the other shithead who gave your spot away?" Its a great question and basically an answer to my problems except for the fact that I don't enjoy being yelled at. I know for a fact if I take the time to wake someone up, they're just ganna get upset with me and call me unreasonable then be grumpy at me after they wake up from the bed I payed for. I know it because I'd do the same thing if I were them. I know because all my friends have done since we got here is yell at me about shit. Waking them up would cause a shitstorm of bad shit on me, and I don't even want to go close to drama because I know for a fact I'll always be on the losing side. 

But at least I got those four hours!!! Woopty fucking do. I got even less sleep last night, which ended in me waking up around 4pm, and even less sleep the night before that! Fuck sleep though, its only good for you. And I didn't even get to enjoy those four hours in uninterrupted succession. Most of it was chopped into tiny nappy bits because my friends find it just sooooo funny to fuck with people while they sleep. They also have this hypocritical sense of be loud and party even when someone's asleep and the only exception to this is when said person is asleep. But did I bitch to their faces? Nay says I for I again, suck at confrontation, and the only time during this whole incident of not sleeping while trying to did I confront someone was when I grabbed someone's hand as they decided and reinforced the notion that my nose is a good thing to touch when I'm asleep. So due to my past sleep deprivation and my friends' lack of social courtacy, I'm left here now with the least amount of sleep, the least amount of bed time, and the least amount of fun.

Let's recap shall we? I spent a lot of money on a tiny convention so I could tiredly walk around the tiny halls like a zombie as I become underwhelmed by the site of things I should want to buy. On top of it, I get berated only when I step out of line as our "leader (fuck you I don't see you as a leader but everyone else does)" and or peers do the same exact shit and get away with it.

And I'd like to add here this isn't the only time I've been yelled at for doing shit I normally do. Ever since a recent event that caused me to be less sociable, most of my time spent with friends is spent being yelled at... Anyway...

After getting berated by hypocracy, I come to find the events and panels here are boring and uninteresting for the most part. And when I go to sleep my troubles away, I get interrupted and when I try a second time, I get stuck between a rock and a literal hard place.

My only wish is that my friends not read this until they can't bring it up in person any longer, and that tomorrow be better. Maybe I'll be able to get a full night's sleep in that bed I payed for... 

As a side note, I'm filled with irrational rage and loathing at the moment and if this journal finds its way to a friend in this hotel room. Fuck off. Don't confront me about it. Just keep on doing what you're doing and leave me be so I can wallow in the pile of salt. All confronting me will do is make me even more upset and then depressed followed by me just giving up and finding my way back home where I'll proceed to never want to talk to your ass again. (Also, there are only two people that would even check their dA so if someone else decides to talk to me about my saltyness, I know who to fucking blame and there goes my compassion for three people because I'm an emotional wreck and a mental hurricane). 

To the rest of you. I'm not normally this bad. I promise its just where my life is right now. I'll get better and I promise never to go to Wasabicon again. 

Until next time,
A person of salt in a sea of butthurt.

p.s. I'm also kinda really hungry because con food is expensive and I'm cheap. Not to mention all anyone brought was snack food and drinks. Except for this muffin which will not only not fill me, but also probably somehow get me in trouble or lead to someone bitching about how they didn't get the last blueberry muffin. Gods I wished I lived in the middle of nowhere sometimes...
  • Mood: Hysterical
  • Listening to: Unintelligible noises and the loud elevators.
  • Watching: My fucks float away.
  • Playing: A very dangerous game.
  • Eating: I fucking wish I had something to eat...
  • Drinking: Mtn Dew and Ginger Ale

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Hey man, my account was hijacked, so I can be find here.
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Thans for the faves, bruh. :3
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Thanks for the favorite. ^.=.^
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